Late last week, my sister introduced me to a book I knew was a game changer. The minute I saw it I knew I needed a copy for myself because it fits right in there with two things that appeal to me…working towards my zen and coveting fuzzy things. (Yes. I know to be truly zen I would have to not covet things, even soft, fuzzy things, but this is why I said I am working towards my zen. I am not there yet, people.) The book is Bunny Buddhism by Krista Lester. It is an adorable tome filled with wisdom about life and illustrations of darling bunnies on the path to bunniness. As soon as I got the name of the book, I was one-clicking my way through Amazon to get it here as fast as humanly possible. (Yes. I know instant gratification also goes against my path to zen, but I can only make this journey one step at a time.) Today the book arrived, and I devoured 186 pages of bunny thoughtfulness, carefully marking statements that resonated with me. Fifty some Post-It tabs later, I realized I have a lot more travel ahead on the road to zen than I originally thought.
Last week, a fellow blogger (and all around kind gal) commented that she missed my blog postings. She told me she was planning to write every day in April. I was tempted to join her on her journey, but ultimately decided that after all this time off I’d gotten too lazy to commit to a whole month. That seemed like an awful lot of work. Then Bunny Buddhism arrived in my mailbox, and with it came my inspiration. And so for the next couple weeks, or until I am plumb bored with cute, fuzzy things or deep, life-changing wisdom, I am going to pick a thought from the book and blog a bit about it.
Today’s Bunny Buddhism mediation is this:
Even a reliable bunny misses a hop sometimes; then the important thing becomes simply to return to hopping.
That is what I am doing right now. I am returning to hopping by blogging again. Once I was a reliable writer, composing something every day for a full year, but I lost my way. I decided other things in my life were more pressing. I reasoned that because writing is not a paying gig for me, I had best focus on my primary job as wildlife manager (aka “mom to two sons”). I thought maybe all the time off blogging would give me more time to focus on writing a book. It didn’t. I found other ways to occupy my time when I put writing on the back burner. I rewatched all the seasons and every single episode of Breaking Bad, Mad Men, and LOST. I read way too many articles about our food system that scared the bejeezus out of me. I spent appalling amounts of time on Facebook. And through it all, the only thing I learned is that I am a first-class escape artist. But at the end of the day, no matter what I do or don’t do, the one thing I can’t avoid is the knowledge that I am a writer. I may not be a world-class writer or a published writer or even (gasp) a working writer, but I am a writer. It is what I do. Writing is as much a part of me as my blue-hazel eyes, my constellations of moles, and my stubby fingernails. Denying it doesn’t make it less true. It only takes me further away from my true self.
My writing is not unlike my path to zen. I have a great deal to learn and a lot of room to grow. But I can’t make any progress by freaking out and freezing up when I miss a blog. Life will continue whether I write or not, but every day I skip writing I miss an opportunity to be my most authentic, wonderful, flawed, and yet-somehow-still-perfect self. And so I begin again. They say a journey of a thousand hops begins with a single hop, right?
great post and this book sounds right up my alley, too ) yes, you are indeed a writer, justine. there is no denying it. best, beth
Thank you, Beth. I think that, like any form of artistic expression, when you claim that you are creative in some way, people find it arrogant because art is subjective. But for those of us who claim to be writers it’s not a matter of believing we’re good at it but simply a matter of being. I am bunny whether or not I embrace my bunniness. 😉
I’m enjoying your blog!
Thank you, Scott. I appreciate the kind feedback.
Yay! I have missed reading your blog. :). And lol at “wild life manager.”
I don’t know if my last comment showed up…so I just wanted to say…YAY! Glad you blogged again! I always love reading your thoughts and insights and things. 🙂
lol at “Wildlife Manager”.
Thank you, friend! I am beginning to suspect that my gift for “thinking too much” must be good for something. Be in bunniness! 🙂
Justine, you have such a gift and talent for writing. It brings a smile to my face whenever I open my e-mail and find that you have a new blog post.
Thanks, Liz. You made my day!
Yay! So happy to read your writing again and I have to get this book! Great Easter present lol.
I bought one for you already because I knew you would love it! 🙂