Four entries left in this 366 day experiment of mine. I had all day to come up with something to write, and yet nothing came to me. Instead of thinking, researching, clawing at the world to find a subject for this blog tonight, I went out to dinner, played foosball, got Pinkberry for dessert, and then settled in to watch our go-to family movie, The Avengers, with my boys. (On a side note: every time I watch this film, I wonder why when Dr. Banner’s shirt rips and falls away as he becomes the gargantuan green monster that is the Incredible Hulk his pants seem to grow with him instead of tearing apart like his shirt. I suppose, though, that if Banner’s pants ripped apart and there was full-frontal, green southern exposure, the film would lose its PG-13 rating. Probably not very family friendly at that point. But, I digress.)
I have three days left to determine the future course of this blog. I plan to continue it but on a reduced publishing schedule. I would love to devote more time to writing for publication, and the truth is that this blog can take two full hours of writing time each day away from those efforts. It’s time for me to move on in my life and tackle Phase 2 of my trek back into authorship. This blogging journey began as a selfish adventure. I wanted to see if I could do it, if I could get back to writing the way I used to back in the days when writing was an imperative, a calling. After my sons were born, I went through years when writing was something I wanted to do but couldn’t imagine how to accomplish.
After nearly a year of plugging away at my passion, I now realize two things: 1) this is what I’m meant to do and 2) I’ve only made it this far because of you. I’ve been overwhelmed by the support I’ve had from friends, family, and strangers as I worked each day within this crazy realm of blogging. So, I’m opening this up to those who have supported me. I know I need to make a change, but I don’t want to lose what I’ve established. What to do….what to do. What do you think? I’m considering going to two full entries and two shorter entries per week. Will this type of schedule dissuade you from caring? Will it all work out in the end and will I not find myself alone?
Not unlike the Hulk, I’m undergoing my own personal transformation here, busting out of the mold I’ve established. I hope that my journey has made me bigger than I used to be. I hope that I’ve grown. I know I’ve become much more exposed than I ever was before. Now I’m simply wondering if I can make this next transition successfully, gracefully, and with my pants in tact.
Live Now and Zen 
I think it goes w/o saying but I’ll say it anyway 😉
I will read regardless of your posting schedule. I have found humor, inspiration, insight and tenderness while reading your stories and thoughts. It find it serves as the kick in the pants I need more often than I want to admit. Thank you, Jus! Now quit making me cry! LOL I say that like it’s hard to make me cry.
Carry on and best of luck to you in the writing world!
I will read whatever you write!
Date: Sun, 2 Dec 2012 06:19:09 +0000 To: youelle1@hotmail.com
I read every entry, but I will say that I have been very touched by some of your recent entries about Luke and how you’re making sense of the current and upcoming changes. Loved the one about him drawing his notes rather than using words.
Thanks, Donna. As you can probably tell, although I’ve made my peace with the challenges my sons face, this is still a learning process for me. Parenting these boys has been an education I never expected, but I would not change a thing about them…except maybe for their proclivity towards messy bathrooms. 🙂
I’m so impressed that you’ve been able to blog every day. I’m happy if I can get a post out 2 – 3 times a week. Please do carry on, as you make me literally laugh out loud, or cry, or best of all, make me realize we moms are not alone with our craziness. My only advice is keep doing what you love — don’t worry about the schedule, the words will still flow. And we will keep reading!
Thanks for the kind comment. I truly appreciate it. I’m afraid if I don’t set a publishing schedule I will become lazier and lazier until I no longer feel I have time for it. It’s happened before. It’s good to feel the pull to write when you want to because you have something to say, but sometimes you need to feel compelled to write because you have to and not because you want to. Those are some of the times when I amaze myself with how I can come up with something from nothing. 😉
I will read your blog regardless. Both the insight that you have, as well as your sensitivity, make it pleasant to read and to share.
Keep it up!!!
Thanks, Bill. It means a lot to me that you and others spend a bit of your day with me!
Hey Jus! I am a few days behind. 😦 But I think I am with the majority, I will read whatever and whenever you write! 🙂 Even once a week, whatever works for you! But I find your posts uplifting and inspiring on some days….funny and humorous other days, and always insightful and full of knowledge too! I enjoy your posts! There have been quite a few days where I can completely relate to your post and it makes me feel less alone in motherhood!
Thanks so much for your post, Colleen. Comments like yours always make me feel like I am doing something right. 🙂